- Question: If God really exists he should've not allowed all pain and evilness in this world.
- Answer: God exists because he created you, he had written everything on the book of your life. And the pain and evilness, are the consequences of your choices. He already knows what will actually happen to your life, what you'll choose and how would you live your life. It's just that, he wasn't judgmental and he gave you a chance. And if he wouldn't allow evilness, His Kingdom would be invalid, because everyone will be there. Even those who doesn't deserve to be there.
Don’t tell me you love me unless you were able to handle me at my worst. I am a mess and I admit that. I bring nothing but trouble and oftentimes, I am wrong. I am aware of that. If you think you love me, well, think again. I do not want you to suffer because of me. I do not want to cause you any sadness for I would never want to see your smile fade away. My actions might harm you. My words may pain you and my idiocy may annoy you.
I do believe that you deserve someone better. Someone who could give you the love you truly deserve. Someone who could make you smile and make you feel loved. I know I was destined to be alone. Go on, find another person. Do not waste your time on me. I may be a shooting star just like what you have said, but remember, sooner or later, I will stop burning brightly and eventually, lose my splendor.
And it’s not that I do not like you. It’s just that I care about you so much that I wouldn’t mind if I got hurt upon your farewell because I will have to bear an even more painful scar in my heart if I see you sad because of me.
Forever and forever and forever.”
Di ko po alam. Naging inactive narin kasi ako. Wala na kong balita dito. :(
She packed her bags and rode the train. She’ll start her life living without him. She had enough. She’s already tired of their relationship that even how much she love him, she just can’t take all the pain anymore. He pushed her to her limit and she just can’t give him another chance. She sat on the seat reserved for her and looked out of the window. Tears fell from her eyes as she think of him. She’s free. She’s free from his selfishness. From the heartbreaks he’s causing her. She’s free from the arms that choke her. She’s free from the person she had loved since the time they bumped into each other. She’s free from her own stupidity. Tears continuously flow into her cheeks and she couldn’t control it. There’s that pain in her heart and she could hear voices from within telling her to get off from that train and go back to him. But no! She’s never getting back to his arms, even how much she wanted to. She don’t wanna miss his tender kisses in the morning. She don’t wanna miss his sweet hugs just before he would go to work. She don’t wanna miss how he sang a song for her after a big fight. She don’t wanna miss how he would surprise her on their special day. And she don’t wanna miss how much he made her feel loved despite the tantrums and sudden change of mood that he have. She just don’t want to change the decision that she had made. She’s leaving. She’ll starting making her life a better one, stripping off the memories of him in it. She’ll survive even without him. She knew she could. But it would take a lot of time to forget someone she had loved so much, more than anything. And the train started moving.
He pushed back his back into the cold wall. She’s gone. She left him just like that. He hold the letter into his left fist and crumpled it mightily. Tears suddenly rushed from the corner of his eyes as he realized the silence that came upon his whole being. Everything is slowly sinking into his mind and it’s just too hard to accept. He can’t live without her. She is his life. She’s the only thing that kept him going and he can’t survive without her in his life. He grabbed his hair with both hands as he cry hard for the first time. He knew he had been such a jerk. An asshole. He knew he made her cry countless of times. He broke her heart and gave her so much pain. He had never been a good boyfriend and he regretted it so much. And now, he’s suffering the bitter fruits of his wrong doing. But he love her so much. He’s just a stupid guy who’s afraid of telling her how much he loves her. He tried showing her his love but it wasn’t enough because she still chose to leave him. He want her back. He want her back so bad. He looked out of the window, eyes full of tears. He’s starting to miss her. Her sweet smile that brights up his every morning. Her tight hugs just before they go to sleep. Her loving kiss whenever he is not in good mood. And the way she took care of him whenever he’s sick and after a long tiring day of work. He haven’t took care of her that much. What a fool. He knew it’s too late but he is willing to change for her. He’s willing to be someone who’s good enough for her. He will be someone she would never leave again. He stood up from the floor, wipe away his tears and headed to the door. He’s going to get her back. He knew he could get her back.
People will judge you, that’s what they do. It’s human nature. They would say inappropriate words or humiliate you; They may give you cold stares or make you feel some sort-of messed up, but it’s up to you whether you’re going to absorb what they’re saying or not. If some of them still choose to believe the lies, and still choose to hate you, LET THEM. If that’s what they think, then so be it. You should NOT hold that against them. Don’t join them hating you because whatever mistake you did, maybe the same mistake could have been made as well. You should start moving forward, and live how YOU ARE SUPPOSED TO LIVE. But because we are too busy looking at the negative side, sometimes it makes us forget that the positive side still exists… that if there are people who hates you, there would be also r who give and share their sympathy for you. And that should make yourself pay more attention to the people around you. Stop the habit of shutting down, of tuning out the world around yourself. You couldn’t change the past, and you couldn’t change what certain people believed of you, but as you open your eyes and looked around, you will see that more people really did look at you with concern and curiosity than outright anger.
Keep on writing-
Even if the society hinders you from doing so. Don’t let them stop you from doing what you like. It’s your skill after all. Don’t mind them. Just remember the quotation “Write for you, not for them”. Don’t let their criticisms stop you from writing. Keep in mind that they are not worth your time and you should not let their words affect you. You are awesome in your own little way.
Keep on writing-
Let a writer be born in your persona. I know there are lots of writers but I do believe that there will always be something that would make you shine above the rest. There is still this uniqueness that each writer has which differs them from others. Let that writer in you be developed. Just write, write and write. Use your creative juices. Don’t waste them.
Keep on writing-
Who knows, your words might even change lives. Some or most of the writers we idolize also started from being a simple writer, but now, just look at them, they successfully changed lives through their works. Who knows? You might be one of them. One of the people who could change the perspective of other people.
Keep on writing-
Simply because you can. When the time comes that you are going to die, just remember that there is something that will live on- your words.
You can see millions of posts telling you what love is. But in all honesty, no one can tell you what love can and can’t do. No one can tell you what love really is. When we say love, we can talk about thousands of things about it.
Its been almost twenty years and I am still alive. I can say that for almost how many years, I felt love in different ways. But I am going to tell you about the kind of love, I like the most.
We are all scared to trust someone; because we are all scared to get hurt in the end. When I felt that I am already falling in love to someone, I stayed up late for how many nights thinking how to make sure I am doing the right thing; which was really stupid because sometimes, we can only understand that we’re doing the wrong thing when we’re already broken.
So, I told myself that I should test if I can trust this guy. You know what I did? I told him things that are supposed to be whispered to the ocean waves so they can slam it to the shores.
That thing about me could destroy me if he’s going to tell it to someone. But he didn’t. He had the power to destroy me, but he didn’t.
After how many months, I asked him if he can still remember what I told him long ago and he said yes. And then he added,
"I was happy when you told me that thing about you. It didn’t scare me and it wasn’t enough to push me away from you if that was your plan. You told me something you cannot say to anyone and that made me so happy because that means you really trust me.
If you really love someone, even if you have the chance to break them, you’re not going to do it. Because you do not break the person you love. If they’re already broken, you have to fix them and you have to make them feel that they are loved.”
this is fucking love.
If I die tonight,
take my favorite book,
cover it on blue wrapper
with a picture of my family
with you smiling,
put it in my coffin-
on my chest to keep
all the people
whom I love near me.
If I die tomorrow,
can you write me a eulogy
and read it on my funeral?
If I die next week,
can you take me to Paris?
It’s the place i've always
wanted to be. Maybe you can
brag my parents about it
as a dying perk.
And when I finally sleep,
go to Paris again,
reminisce everything what
we did there.
If I die within the next hour,
can you kiss me and make me
look beautiful even though
If I die,
Move on but please,
don’t forget about me.
Things you should know before falling in love with me:
I am fragile. I’ve been hurt before. My heart was shattered like a broken glass. I bleed. I cried. I feel so dumb, I feel so numb. I debased myself. I have been neglected.
I am damaged. And I am not sure if I am already fixed. A part of me is still missing. Maybe I never really had my heart back ever since we’ve parted. But I am on the process of moving on. I am trying my hardest to move on from him. It’s just that he gave me so much to remember. I hope you understand if sometimes, you see me writing his name.
I am moody. Maybe because it’s a girl’s nature to be like this. Please bear with me if sometimes, I get irritated with the simplest thing. If sometimes, I cry because of insignificant things. Sorry. I hope you could understand why am I like this.
I will push you away. So that I will know if you will have the guts to stay with me no matter how hard I push you away. I would do crazy things to see if you’ll still love me in return.
I may eventually fall for you. Once I see that you’ve gave enough effort for me, I may fall. But please, catch me. Don’t let me fall once again. I don’t want to be broken once again. At this point, maybe I just recovered from the pain I have been enduring so please, take good care of me. I hope your love for me won’t change. Please don’t be like those other douchebags who gave full effort on the beginning but loses their interest once they already got the girl. Please don’t give up on me like what everyone did. Let me know that forever exists. Show to me that not all boys are the same. Take me to your paradise. Love me, and I will love you back. Hold my hand during those times that I need someone to be with. Okay? Okay.